ergh
See, Im tired of doing things that are not by my initiative, i.e, being told to do things.All my life i have (well almost ALl my life) been doing things that suit me just fine.
Like when i was about 10 not even mom could stop me from going out galavanting about Subang. Every evening about 4.30 without fail i would be out cycling, skate boarding down the hill(my house was on top of a slope/hill*watever*). It was an adrenalin rush. I climbed trees, crawled in the big drainage, hid under the drains when it rain due to my imagination that i was seeking shelter from the Big tornado or something like that.
Then at 11 the rollerblading craze started...i still do blade ..with my salomans of course. =D
Well i did all this because no one stop me.
but now...NOWwwwwwwwww.................im stuck
stuck in god dam ...sabah..........with the gov...
i cant explain it........but i feel very very frustrated
that my lifes plan has been....changed
my plan was to get married young. Maybe at 26 the most to the person i love
But i cant now...i just seem to piss everybody off
U know what...im going to do things for myself already
im going to eat chocos when i feel like it
sleep naked if i feel like it
swim in my bikini if i feel like it
be foul mouth and loud if i feel like it
nobody can stop me
but me
fuck it...
i had enough of accomodating anybody......
i give up
posted by Pheromonic Pharmacist @ 10:52 PM
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